Friday, December 5, 2008

tits, tees, and treadmills

The other day I thought I would pop downstairs and hit the gym in my building--but alas, it is closed for renovation. So I hopped in the car and drove to my actual gym.

I got there and realized, that since I was doing a quickie at home, I had skipped the sports bra. The funny thing is, I rarely ever wear bras in everyday life. Frankly, I don't need them. Secondly, I think my own shape is more attractive. Thirdly, I am all about female nipple liberation. Fourthly, I am all about comfort.

But I couldn't help but wonder, why was I so insecure about my bitties at the gym? Is it all that moving around on the elliptical that made me feel over-exposed?

So I ran the internal dialogue in my head. Self, compulsory over-regulation of the female body is irrational and oppressive. Self, my body is no one's business but my own. Self, I reject male privilege and the notion that any and every word out of my mouth or article of clothing on my body is some sort of calculated sexual message. Self, I reject the notion that I am only a walking, talking sexual message.

It is funny that I have to worry about what I do or don't do under the privacy of my own clothes...

2 comments:

Laura said...

I wish I had your internal dialogue!
I generally feel too self conscious to let my bitties out- and whats the point in that?
Whenever I decide that I do need to find myself a bra- its an impossible feat of sifting through outrageous push ups, underwires and padding. The mainstream message seems to be 'you and your natural body must be significantly altered'.

So I would love to read more of your opinion on female nipple liberation

Nadine said...

Recently have got my treadmill through Smooth Fitness, I'm really happy on getting it.